I have said these words more times than I care to count. I have said them at every single location that we have ever been stationed. Usually I say it around month three. At this point I have settled in and the newness has worn off. By this point I am really missing my friends from previous duty stations and all of the differences between me and the locals have stopped being "cute" or "quaint" and just started pissing me off. Then, usually within a matter of weeks, I make friends, learn the backroads, find the best places to shop and the really good restaurants and bakeries - in short, I settle in.
That being said - I hate it here! We have been here since July 2009, and I have lived here full-time since May 2010. I still cannot wait to leave. I know that this is a short term duty station with no possibility of settling in. Therefore, I haven't been allowing myself to get too friendly with the locals, and the military population here is so small the the number of potential female friends is very small, and I am done forcing myself to make friendships work. I am not saying that there aren't some nice ladies here, but no one who is BFF potential. It's a little sad and a lot frustrating. I cannot wait to leave here. I want to go back to Tennessee, or Washington, or Germany, or even try out Colorado. Shhhhhhhh.... don't tell the Army, but I would even be willing to go to North Carolina, something I had been adamantly against in the past.
I miss being a part of a big military community. I miss having a group of people with whom I can laugh and roll my eyes with when we talk about the dumb stuff locals do, or commiserates with me about the deployments, TDYs, etc. People I can compare notes with. People with the same nomadic lifestyle. People who have kids going through the same stuff mine is - our third culture kids.
And to cap off this whine/rant let me sign off with these parting thoughts: *eh-hem* I hate the cold! I hate the way people drive here! I am sick and tired of living in this shitty house! I hate it here!!
Saturday, November 27, 2010
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